In the spring of 2014, I began blogging about the health lessons I was learning through colitis. At the time, though, I was too self-conscious to go public with my blog–it was just for me, unadvertised to my friends or to anyone else. I wonder now if that was partly my rejection of colitis as a new and permanent part of me. Maybe I was still in the denial phase of grief.

I stopped blogging entirely in fall 2014, distracted by our move to Portland. But in 2016, when I emerged from a long hospital stay, I realized I was ready to write again, and publicly–to go public with my disease. Although I haven’t yet solved the riddle of my health, by now I feel like I have some valuable things to say.

You might have noticed that this blog is unusual: it’s written in the past tense. That’s because, truth be told, it is more a book draft than a blog. (Perhaps I should call it a blook? Please, no!) I’m a memoirist and want to write a book about my experiences with colitis, but I also want to share these experiences with people sooner rather than later. Since I don’t have the time and energy to write both a book and a blog, I’ve decided to dribble my book out in little pieces. It will likely be far different in the final draft, but that’s my method: I start by writing as much as I can remember, then look back and craft the interesting parts into a cohesive story.

If you look closely, you’ll also notice something wonky about dates: most posts are dated from long ago, while the last one or two sometimes have recent dates…despite those recent posts picking up right where the old ones left off. This is because, to get my blog software to send posts out to email subscribers, I have to date the posts recently. After my auto-mailings have sent, I change the dates to match the actual time in which the events occurred.

Eventually, I will catch the blog up with the present…and who knows, maybe I’ll even start writing in the present tense. Regardless, I hope you enjoy and gain insight from my story. Thanks so much for reading it.